My passions

Week 5! Identity! Identity! Identity! 

  - We just ended week 5! First off, it's flying by! I leave for Melborne November 2. Then off to Figi November 22! Literally coming up so fast.... I should be a pro at flying after all this! So anyway back to the topic... Identity and passions! 

Our speaker the wonderful Hannah, had us think about what our passions are, then to ask God why we have been given those passions. My first passion is... Drum roll.... MIDDLE SCHOOL STUDENTS! I love them, and I have no clue why... So I asked God, like dude why do you give me this passion, and He gave me two major impacts that have made me love middle school students more then ever, and made me have such a passion for them! 

After responding and listing to what God had been speaking to us, we got in a circle and we went around and shared. So it went something like this.... 

"My passion is for middle school students, and I have no clue why because they smell and are so strange, so literally while I was sitting over there I asked God why did you give me this as a passion because, I never was a leader in middle school, I was totally a follower, like what happend the beginning of my sophomore year that made me go like Hey be a middle school leader, and I still don't know. I still sit and say to my self why do I love them so much, so God why is it? He reminded me of the time I helped a kid pray for Christ to come into hes life, a kid who never even wanted me to say Hi how are you doing. 

The second, was very recent, actually the day before I left. I just started over and amending 6th graders! Woo hoo! I barley know most of them, I have only known them for 2 months. As we enter into small group that night, literally they are all sitting on the brown bean bags.... Bawling their eyes out! Crying and crying and sniffing and crying and crying! So I call my co leader Grace and the girls in her group over. Long story somewhat short, we are like we need to do something so as the great leaders we are! :) We lead them down the stairwell in the pitch black, to a creepy closet, and pray. Each one praying, and what impacted me the most was one girl... Emma. Emma every time before that when we would pray would pray... The lords supper. Mmm food! But in that moment in a creepy closet pitch black, she prayed a prayer of just talking to her Heavenly Father that loves her, but I couldn't help but smile, in a creepy closet in the pitch black. Every week I would remind her Emma it's just talking to someone, and to see that in 3 weeks I had made an impact on her prayer life had me at aw. With being reminded of these two things, (but there are many many many other stories that have impacted me) I am reminded that yes I am making an impact on their life, but they are making a greater impact on mine. To see them on fire for Jesus and hungry for more makes me so happy! I love them! 

My other passion is COFFEE! Not sure tho what is in store for the passion.... Still praying for that one! 

 

 

    

 

My first batch of girls that I made from, On point, Indianola hillbillies unite, YEEEE. Stay tight. WATERMELONEE. Chingity Chongity! (If you are like what the heck, it's inside jokes) 

--These group of girls have made such and impact on my life, in the past 3 years of leading them, they have grown closer to God, and are understanding who He is and who they are in him. I am happy to call them my friends and sisters in Christ! 

--The great 6th grade girls! Woo hoo, they rock! I can already see the passion they have to see who God is. I can already see them finding out who they are and realizing that hey, I can be my self, I can be the girl that God has made me to be! I am so stocked to get back and hear all about whats been going on the last 5 months and just to build relationships with them! 

 

--Then my passion for coffee! 

The father heart of God

End of the 4th week... Check mark

BEST WEEK BY FAR. 

I am not even sure if I can write, how I feel about this week in a blog, it was just that crazy, just that awesome. 

So go back to that Friday before this week, our awesome, amazing speakers Rich and Lynn had us make these mas, then we had to decorate them, I literally have no craftiness in me, so I was putting random stuff all over it. My mask had jewled eye brows, the word beautful from a magazine on the lips, a cupcake (I have no clue why because I HATE cupcakes) and a flower. Just random stuff no reason, or so I thought..... What they had us do on Tuesday was crazy awesome, and way outside my comfort zone. 

We split into smaller groups and each and every single on of us say on a chair, showed out mask, and waited. Waited to hear what God was speaking to the others. How they would look at our masks that we made random and tell us something awesome, is still blowing my mind. I got things like... "You are beautiful and what you say is beautful and that you shouldn't hide what you want to say, that you should be more confident" or "The flower shows how delicate you are" Just crazy awesome stuff like that. 

So we did that most of the week, then on Friday... We talked more about the Father Heart Of God, and how we shouldn't abide by the lies of this world, on who we are, so then Rich had us ask God what our new name was, how we arnt what people say we are or what we think. So we went and prayed, then got in a huge circle and 6 volunteers went up first and shared their new name, shared why that's their new name. Then we prayed for them individual going around putting a hand on their back, telling them we are here for you, and let me pray for you. Then it's was gift giving time! Rich had asked us to think of a gift or a couple to give on Friday., but he didn't really tell us what for he just said pray about it and bring it. 

Each and every single on of us went up and shared our name and was prayed for then we received gifts. So stuff given was 

Money 

Skatebkred 

Ukulele 

Jewelry 

Every single one had a meaning and some how became encouraging to that person, and had a great impact 

..... So I would like to share mine 

The new name I gave my self was... or God gave me was... Sam the confident one.... I can be very shy and sometimes have a hard time talking to people, and being here in a new place with new people it has been hard to feel like my self, so after I said that and everyone in my group did, everyone prayed, people would walk around pray for you and, pray for the others... It was awesome. 

Then it was gift giving time,

The first thing I got was a.... braclet 

The second thing I got was a.... guitar

The third thing I got was a... Cross

Necklace

I can't remeber what each person said exactly, because it was so overwhelming  but it was along the lines of "I want you to have this to feel more confident in yourself, to know that you do have a voice" 

It was just so overwhelming but so awesome.

This blog does NOT do justice on how I really felt and, it might be a little choppy to read because I am still like holy cow! This past week was just about the Father Heart Of God, and how we are his children and we should be who God has made us to be, that I am Sam the confident one! 

So I hope you liked it! It might be was easier to share this in person, but what eva, it was still good right? 

Blog you later alligator...